Saturday 8 September 2012

Introducing self-doubt, by Susmita Paul


When a positive response came from those at the helm of this blog initiated by Brit Writers, Susmita Paul felt dizzy and out of breath. She was filled with self-doubt. She could not frame the introductory post that she wanted to write for this blog. Instead, she wrote about climbing and writing being synonymous. It still seems to be difficult for her to introduce herself. But, she promised that she’s going to try.

To begin with, she is a writer with a deep inclination towards writing that confusing genre titled creative nonfiction. However, she has only managed to get a few of her poems published. She says that she is on a journey to write that one thing that every writer dreams of writing – THE book that will etch her into history. Ambition, some may say. Dreams, she says. She believes it is always about perspective. Just as Micah Ferris says in her blog post a couple of posts away. The beauty of a language she believes lies in digging up the root words, in other words, finding the etymology of words.

Writer is a noun that originates from the Old English verb “writan” which approximates the Modern English meaning of “to outline” and will take on the meanings “to scratch, to carve, to tear out”. Author, on the other hand, originates from the Old French “auctor” which would mean in Modern English, “the originator, the creator”.

With her friends at her blog Lustrous Lives, she has become comfortable. The thought of sharing thoughts and ideas with an eclectic group of readers here seemed to be another thing altogether. She just realised, it is not. She simply needs to allow the auctor free reign and then let the writer in her carve the creation with finesse.

She realises that it is okay to have bouts of dizziness born out of self-doubt; only she should not allow its dark horses to take the reins of the chariot of her dreams. There are only three steps to keep the chariot racing:

  1. Acknowledge that voice in your head that critiques your manuscript.
  2. Let it rant while you do your household chores.
  3. After a while, simply write.

  

1 comment:

  1. I am a psychologist, member of my local town’s Academy of Letters, founder and president of the ‘Gestão Jovem’ (Youth Management) Institute. I am also partner and representative of the Project ‘Book in a Box’ for young people in Latin America.
    I work with young people supporting their personal and professional development. I am one of the very few writers with published work targeted specifically at this audience and with high profile presentations made at events of international level.
    For the last two years I have been investing in courses and tutorials by James McSill – responsible for my great success in Brazil. As it was said by James, in relation to my launching publication: ‘Andrey’s story is innovative, captivating and follows the same path of the very few stories by even fewer Brazilian self-development writers who take the challenge of telling a story in order to better illustrate concepts.
    Thank you so much my master, James McSill, and my congratulations to all your professional achievements.

    BEATRIZ CAMPOS - BALNEARIO CAMBORIU - SANTA CATARINA - BRASIL

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